What are the odds that I’ll ever see him again? 1 in a billion, probably.. 

I don’t want to accept that I’m never going to see him again…

I wonder if this guy I saw on the train last night knew that I was totally crushing on him. We kept looking at each other and making eye contact and when I looked out the window, I could see him in the reflection, staring at me. If I wasn’t with my mom, I bet he would have said something to me - I would have said something to him! He had really nice blue eyes and blond hair, and, apparently, when I made my tits joke, he laughed! There’s a 1 in a million chance that I’ll ever see him again and it kills me. I really wish I could find some way though. All I know is that he got on from Penn Station (as we all did at 11:49pm [I don’t know why I remember the time..]) and got off at South Orange… 

Liking someone who doesn’t give a shit about you is, definitely, one of the worst feelings ever. 

People who like someone who likes them back are so lucky. 

I used to think that this guy was just shy and didn’t have the courage to confront me because he would just stare at me, but it turns out, he’s just an asshole.

A couple days ago, for the first time in 4 years, I saw the guy I used to have the biggest crush on. I had just left my town’s deli and gotten in my car when I saw this guy walk passed my car and into the store. I barely even saw his face at first, but I knew it was him.

I didn’t get out of my car for two reasons 1) I looked like shit 2) What would I even say to the guy who used to treat me like a joke? I just sat there, and when he came out, I didn’t even wave or anything because I didn’t know what to do. I was in shock, I guess. I haven’t seen him in so long and there he was, just a few inches from my car. He looked right at me and I’m pretty sure he recognized me.

One day, I hope he realizes how badly he screwed up and how much of a complete idiot (and humungous asshole) he was. I want him to regret never giving me a chance, like I regret ever admitting that I found him cute. 

I always fall for assholes.

I hate how much I care about someone who, I know, doesn’t give a shit if he ever sees me again.. 

Why can’t I find ONE guy that likes me back? Just one. That’s all I want.

and his stubborn ass didn’t say anything to me.. I hate him.